You still have a lot of "what will I do?"s left. There will be plenty of time for "what have I done?"s later. ;) From my perspective, 28 is young. Which you will realize someday. (I just convinced myself that my 76 year old self will be very envious of my "young" 56 year old self of today). It's natural to spend your youth searching and finding your way. It's a time of possibilities and anxieties. That doesn't last forever - which is both good and bad. In the close up view of day to day life, we are fooled into thinking "this is how it is". Nobody expects the chapter to end. But it does, and a new one starts. And then we think again "this is how it is" and fool ourselves into thinking this is how it will always be. But the chapters stack up and time passes faster and faster. The struggle of youth is the journey to find yourself (I don't miss that). The benefit of being older, is that you can just start savoring each day. Which is what I try to do every day. Happy Birthday from one young man to another. :)
My God, thank you. I truly appreciate this message. I’m convinced wisdom is being reminded frequently of insight you already possess deep down somewhere, but these reminder angels come rare. Thank you for this wonderful and insightful reminder of the nature of a fruitful life.
I missed your writing, thank you for sharing this today. and happy birthday :) I also had a birthday last week and I'm working on feeling what needs to be felt and thinking what needs to be thought, because it hits differently when you're a 'year' older. Hoping we both find that medium shot soon.
When you're done being swissbaron and back to being austinbaron, let's grab a drink or ice cream and talk about manly things like feelings and love and tennis.
I appreciate this today... as my husband and I have chosen to separate but still live together to co parent our 5 year old. I've been lost in pain while trying to navigate losing my best friend, still trying to rely on them, and heal from them... and today it seemed to be too much. My pain becoming too much. My heart breaking too much. But.... there is a beauty to have loved so much and to still hope for it again someday. Thanks for the little reminder about the power of resilience. I hope you had a wonderful birthday ❤️
It will take us all a long time until we see our grievances as gifts. There is a beautiful conversation between Anderson Cooper and Stephen Colbert where Colbert is quoted that he had, "learned to love the thing he most wished had not happened," since if we are to be grateful for life, we ought to be grateful for all of it. I would encourage you watch the full interview, but here is that excerpt from it:
Thank you for that, I will have to check it out! It's a beautiful reminder for sure.. I've been doing some psychedelic healing in the mountains of Canada for a few years now for some childhood sexual trauma and that's when I realized loving myself to the fullest was loving all of me and my story, even the really horrible things that were often too painful to look at. It's all part of the process, it's just hard to remember that when you are so immersed in the storm and pain. Thank you for your beautiful story, and I hope you also have the courage to find happiness again.
As a fellow writer I am annoyed at how articulate and insightful you are at just 28. I'm literally twice your age and probably not half as much of either. In any case, thanks for sharing and happy belated!
I believe the question "What have I done with my life?" stems from expectations—either those that others have of you or those you have of yourself. I hope you aren’t being too hard on yourself.
For the past few weeks, I've been dealing with the "What do I do with my life?" question—not for the first time, and hopefully not for the last. I wish the same for you. Happy birthday! Enjoy the quiet times.
I love everything about this post. The way you write, the photographs, the description of tourists and the Swiss restaurant, the Willie Nelson quote, the vulnerability, the blue dot, everything. It's all great. I'm envious of the way you write - It reminds me of all the independent indie films I used to obsessively watch when I was younger and I wish (a little) that my writing sounded the same. I'll be thinking about this post in my days to come.. see you later..
Hey I love your writings so much, but this one really hits me since I’m on the receiving end of a similar break up
It feels so bad to project things, but I just find it so unfair that this is happening
I’m trying my best to understand the reasons, but I’m so mad, it hurts so much to be left when you didn’t do anything wrong
The line with “keeping in touch” when you actually don’t mean that just destroyed me, somehow I’m just sure he doesn’t mean it either, but just wants to make it softer
I really do love your works, it is just amazing, it is beautiful
But my broken heart doesn’t let me to click on this red heart of the post
Watching and reading your content always makes my day. Thank you for letting us have a glimpse at what’s going on in your very very creative head! I’m sure good times are just around the corner. I hope you had a wonderful birthday :)
Happy birthday! Thank you for sharing this. I'm also in my twenties and a few months ago was on the receiving end of a breakup incredibly similar to yours depicted here. Mirrored with mine are some of the thoughts and experiences I've read from you about it and life. I hope if she feels how you do, that those same conclusions won't escape her.
I'm rooting for you Baron. There will always be better days. From one stranger to another: you've added good to my life
You somehow manage to cheer us by adding lot of thoughts to our mind. Sometimes it’s messy and sometimes it’s the most beautiful thing think and overthink. Thank you for that. Have a good one!
Happy Birthday! I really appreciate your insights—thank you for sharing them. I’ve recently experienced something similar and am also working through balancing the micro and macro perspectives. I’m not sure if I’ll find a middle ground or just get better at switching between them, but it’s nice to follow someone with similar views. I subscribed to your Substack mainly to keep track of your material, having followed you on TikTok since 2021. Keep up the great work!
You still have a lot of "what will I do?"s left. There will be plenty of time for "what have I done?"s later. ;) From my perspective, 28 is young. Which you will realize someday. (I just convinced myself that my 76 year old self will be very envious of my "young" 56 year old self of today). It's natural to spend your youth searching and finding your way. It's a time of possibilities and anxieties. That doesn't last forever - which is both good and bad. In the close up view of day to day life, we are fooled into thinking "this is how it is". Nobody expects the chapter to end. But it does, and a new one starts. And then we think again "this is how it is" and fool ourselves into thinking this is how it will always be. But the chapters stack up and time passes faster and faster. The struggle of youth is the journey to find yourself (I don't miss that). The benefit of being older, is that you can just start savoring each day. Which is what I try to do every day. Happy Birthday from one young man to another. :)
My God, thank you. I truly appreciate this message. I’m convinced wisdom is being reminded frequently of insight you already possess deep down somewhere, but these reminder angels come rare. Thank you for this wonderful and insightful reminder of the nature of a fruitful life.
I missed your writing, thank you for sharing this today. and happy birthday :) I also had a birthday last week and I'm working on feeling what needs to be felt and thinking what needs to be thought, because it hits differently when you're a 'year' older. Hoping we both find that medium shot soon.
When you're done being swissbaron and back to being austinbaron, let's grab a drink or ice cream and talk about manly things like feelings and love and tennis.
I could think of nothing better than a black coffee at Radio and a cookie. I’ll message you when I’m back!
I appreciate this today... as my husband and I have chosen to separate but still live together to co parent our 5 year old. I've been lost in pain while trying to navigate losing my best friend, still trying to rely on them, and heal from them... and today it seemed to be too much. My pain becoming too much. My heart breaking too much. But.... there is a beauty to have loved so much and to still hope for it again someday. Thanks for the little reminder about the power of resilience. I hope you had a wonderful birthday ❤️
It will take us all a long time until we see our grievances as gifts. There is a beautiful conversation between Anderson Cooper and Stephen Colbert where Colbert is quoted that he had, "learned to love the thing he most wished had not happened," since if we are to be grateful for life, we ought to be grateful for all of it. I would encourage you watch the full interview, but here is that excerpt from it:
https://www.instagram.com/whoisprakasaka/reel/CxOjHOUO8Wi/
Thank you for this comment and I hope you have the courage to find happiness again.
Love these beautiful messages, the beautiful post AND the exert!!!
Thank you for that, I will have to check it out! It's a beautiful reminder for sure.. I've been doing some psychedelic healing in the mountains of Canada for a few years now for some childhood sexual trauma and that's when I realized loving myself to the fullest was loving all of me and my story, even the really horrible things that were often too painful to look at. It's all part of the process, it's just hard to remember that when you are so immersed in the storm and pain. Thank you for your beautiful story, and I hope you also have the courage to find happiness again.
As a fellow writer I am annoyed at how articulate and insightful you are at just 28. I'm literally twice your age and probably not half as much of either. In any case, thanks for sharing and happy belated!
I believe the question "What have I done with my life?" stems from expectations—either those that others have of you or those you have of yourself. I hope you aren’t being too hard on yourself.
For the past few weeks, I've been dealing with the "What do I do with my life?" question—not for the first time, and hopefully not for the last. I wish the same for you. Happy birthday! Enjoy the quiet times.
I love everything about this post. The way you write, the photographs, the description of tourists and the Swiss restaurant, the Willie Nelson quote, the vulnerability, the blue dot, everything. It's all great. I'm envious of the way you write - It reminds me of all the independent indie films I used to obsessively watch when I was younger and I wish (a little) that my writing sounded the same. I'll be thinking about this post in my days to come.. see you later..
ALSO HAPPY 28th BIRTHDAY!
Hey I love your writings so much, but this one really hits me since I’m on the receiving end of a similar break up
It feels so bad to project things, but I just find it so unfair that this is happening
I’m trying my best to understand the reasons, but I’m so mad, it hurts so much to be left when you didn’t do anything wrong
The line with “keeping in touch” when you actually don’t mean that just destroyed me, somehow I’m just sure he doesn’t mean it either, but just wants to make it softer
I really do love your works, it is just amazing, it is beautiful
But my broken heart doesn’t let me to click on this red heart of the post
Watching and reading your content always makes my day. Thank you for letting us have a glimpse at what’s going on in your very very creative head! I’m sure good times are just around the corner. I hope you had a wonderful birthday :)
Happy Birthday Baron❤️
I pray you find comfort, peace and love even in the littlest things.
First off, Happy birthday! Second, thank you for a beautiful ending paragraph that just made me sit and contemplate
Happy birthday! Thank you for sharing this. I'm also in my twenties and a few months ago was on the receiving end of a breakup incredibly similar to yours depicted here. Mirrored with mine are some of the thoughts and experiences I've read from you about it and life. I hope if she feels how you do, that those same conclusions won't escape her.
I'm rooting for you Baron. There will always be better days. From one stranger to another: you've added good to my life
Happiest birthday, Baron!
You somehow manage to cheer us by adding lot of thoughts to our mind. Sometimes it’s messy and sometimes it’s the most beautiful thing think and overthink. Thank you for that. Have a good one!
Great post. Thanks as always for reminding us how absurd life can be, and how we can still find comfort in it. Alles liebe!
Happy birthday! May the present you receive today be the beginning of the peace you are looking for.
Thanks for the playlist
Of course :)
Happy Birthday! I really appreciate your insights—thank you for sharing them. I’ve recently experienced something similar and am also working through balancing the micro and macro perspectives. I’m not sure if I’ll find a middle ground or just get better at switching between them, but it’s nice to follow someone with similar views. I subscribed to your Substack mainly to keep track of your material, having followed you on TikTok since 2021. Keep up the great work!
Best of luck finding that medium hombre, I have an optimistic suspicion we’ll both find it soon :)